my cancer marker has been climbing up again the past 2 months
please continue to pray for me!!
ive been through this road before, but this time with your prayers, ill be fine!

today i went to the hospital for check up
later on, the nurse told me that my tumour marker has fallen to 150 !
before i did the treatment 2 months ago, it was at 17000!
last month it was 980.
this is such a huge drop and I couldnt believe it, still cant

so please continue to pray for me. it has been helpful!
hopefully the tumour will just disappear or i could go for a liver transplant!

one thing i want my frens to benefit from is from my experience
my experience has taught me a lot about diet, lifestyle, mind and soul and the impact on oneself

first, we need to be constantly aware that our body is a beautiful and amazing creation
next, it is because of this amazing body that we are able to do things we like. for example, watching movies, eating the food we like, dancing.. u noe, the simplest and most complex of all things
thus, we need to be responsible for it and take good care of the body.

there are a few things that you can do to treat your body well
1) say thank you to your body.
2) close your eyes and feel the vibrations in your fingers, hands, feet, mouth and let these vibrations flow throughout. feel your heartbeat. know that you're alive.
3) brush your teeth well. take time to shower and bathe yourself.
4) feed it with good organic healthy food
5) sleep before 11pm and wake up early.
6) spend some quiet time alone, taking deep breaths to your lungs and abdomen

everyone usually is busy and feels the need to do something. but please spend some quality time on your body. it will pay off.

big big kiss for those praying for me
please wake up in the morning and wish for my recovery
before you sleep, also wish for my recovery
when you're feeling frustrated/confused or having negative thoughts, forget those negative thoughts and pray for my recovery
if you believe and i believe, then it'll happen

thanks lrok, my dog, what u told me that day was invaluable!! now i live an amazing life every single moment! wooof

ive just shove my head bald, almost bald
something like david beckham
when i go out i wear a winter hat and it's cool
i feel like in england again - free n ez, no one really too bothered about how u dress

gonna have frens coming from abroad visiting me over the weekend and into next week
it's always impressive and comforting to have people making the effort to take planes/coaches just to see me

i think my relationship w/ my mother is improving a lot, we seldom argue these days
maybe it's because she's going to bedok reservoir with me in the morning to exercise everyday. i think fresh air and nature brings balance to her body and emotions.

in singapore, places like bedok reservoir, macritchie reservoir, bk timah reserve etc are like secret jewels. there're only a handful of singaporeans out there that recognise this. if u are reading this, i pray that you make a trip to one of these nature sites (relatively speakin) and rest your tired soul there. we're all sons and daughters of nature, so i hope u find some peace there.

on oprah winfrey's show i saw this episode talking about the law of attraction
people wrote on a piece of paper 3 things that they wanted most to happen in their lives
and after some time, some of these things came true

if you are reading this, i urge you to write on a piece of paper for me, jeffery chew, to get well and recover from cancer. put this piece of paper in your wallet or even better, put it some where that you can see it every day
the more you hope for it, on my behalf, i think my chances are better
you can even ask people who dont know me to do it, if you dont think that it's dumb

also, do not forget to show care and concern for me, not just once nor twice nor thrice, but as often as you can, all these little things help

everyday i get my sister to talk to my liver, hoping that it'll be good and perform some kind of miracle

i was alike a dead man last week
my foot was full of ulcers - every step i took reminds me of a painless walk
my fingers were sore - my mom had to tie my laces for me
my anus was totally gone case - every shit that came out was painful and nt w/o blood
my balls were sore
my body full of rashes and itching - i couldnt sleep well for most nights
ETC ETC

im sorry if some of these sound quite raw, but that's the truth

i then stopped taking the medicine upon doc's approval

now im starting on half dosage .. it seems like my rashes are coming back but slowly and my anus is starting to become sore again. i think ill hang on a bit and see if they might go away

i started a chemo oral drug 11 days after radiation
a few days in, i felt normal, but now the side effects are setting in
i cant even stand still for more than 10 seconds
my eyes feel v heavy and i get double vision
neck ache, shoulder ache, head ache

food also plays an impt part
when i take food that's hard to digest to glutinous rice, i dont feel well
when i take spicy food, my liver enlarges

yesterday morning my mom asked me what sodomy is
at night my sister asked me what sodomy is

i told my mom that it's when "a man pokes a man in his ass"
i told my sis "sexual contact between 2 men"

the procedure was terrible
when they injected radiation into my body, i was screaming all the way
they told me that usually people do not need more than 20 units of painkiller, but they gave me 60

although the pain was bad, but the post-procedure effect was less than when i had chemotherapy
i have no fever

i could feel that i need to reserve my energy level, there are people coming by that just sucks all my energy .. normal people might not feel it .. but after i read or listen to music, or talk to others, it really drained me and after that, i just cant even talk/move

today i will be hospitalised for radiation treatment. beta radiation particles will be injected through an artery from my groin up into my tumour site. hopefully this will kill some bad ass tumour cells

in june 2006 i was diagnosed with primary liver cancer and in june 2006 i had a surgery to take away my left lobe of my liver.

sadly, a few months after surgery, my tumour marker started to climb again and in june 2007, my scans showed multiple tumours in my liver.

right now, doctors tell me that without treatment, i would only have 6 more months to live

please dont feel sad or pity me, cus i really feel quite peaceful, im not giving up and i want to share the things that ive learnt throughout this peroid of time

im setting this blog up to let you guys know about my condition and to share some the things that ive learnt